It's been a while

Hey everyone!

So pretty much as the title says, its been a long while since I last posted and it was actually around this time last year that I originally started blogging, something about January and new beginnings must inspire me to blog haha!
I wanted to start blogging again as I loved it last time so thought I'd write a bit of an update today with what happened over 2015.  I stopped blogging last year for various reasons which I will touch on throughout this blog, mainly due to quickly running out of time to spend doing the things I love to do. Last June I got my first every job aged 18, still cant quite believe I had the courage to make that step and to this day I am so happy and proud that I managed to do it! The job has taught me loads and has already been full of ups and downs. My best friend Ellie actually got me the job meaning I skipped the interview stage which I have always been most nervous about.. Okay so it may have been a cheat way of getting a job but it was a massive step even so! It was only 12 hours a week as a pot wash at a local restaurant.. ideal first job for someone with social anxiety as I didn't need to have good customer service or people skills and it was very simple to do. Very quickly I started getting to know the chefs and progressing there which made me extremely happy, I have always had a passion for food and cooking so having this small job allowed me to turn that love into something I do as a daily job. Over the last 6 months I have learnt so much and am extremely grateful for the opportunities the chefs there have given me, I now do afternoon teas and have learnt a lot about baking, and up until last week I worked full time doing long hours and split shifts. If you hadn't already worked out, I did actually leave college as I simply couldn't manage working full time and being at college and I decided that hospitality was the career I wanted. Over time this has changed, as much as I have loved the job, the hours have just become too unrealistic for me and too difficult. I have barely had time to go and see to my horse twice a day let alone blog etc as I have just always been working. Last week I made the decision to cut down to part time hours and look for a new job with more stable hours.. this is a huge mission for me but I'm going into the job hunting a lot more confident than I was last year. I am determined to have the confidence to get a new career path at some point this year!
Working part time for a few weeks is now allowing me to do the things I love again though which is great, I will finally have chance to wind down, spend time with my horse and my family which I struggled to do even over Christmas! No promises but I am hoping to keep it this way even if/when I find a new job so I will still be regularly blogging.
I have also been pushing my anxiety limits a lot recently which is helping so much with my social skills. Sadly I do still suffer with panic disorder but I will crack it one day! Taking it all step by step, pushing myself but not too much.. if that makes any sense! I always find writing down my thoughts relieves my anxiety, sometimes a little and sometimes a lot so I hope blogging again will help even more with my stress levels! Yesterday I managed to go and pick up some feed for my horse on my own and book a table at a restaurant for the first time ever! So happy as these are big steps for me!

I am sure you'll all be pleased to know I am still with my long term boyfriend Matt, we live together and he is no longer at uni meaning we spend a lot of time together and have the best times! :)

Think I'm going to leave this blog there as now I have explained 2015 and some of the things that have gone on in my life, feel better now its off my chest! I have a few more blog ideas already so looking forward to typing them out and posting more blogs over the next few days!

Speak again soon and thank you so much for everyone's support, even to this day I have been getting views on old blogs which is incredible! So excited to be getting back into this!

Much love, Mol and Sum xxx